Mistake

mis⋅take  /mɪˈsteɪk/ Pronunciation [mi-steyk]

So there's this guy that I've liked for a long timeeee -Never was able to point out why I was so much "in LIKE" with this dude/ I never got his real views on me ... but it didn't matter much , we were kool

This is all weird !

I called him my "crush" and it went nowhere but I was ok with that so I thought...ok ok I was WRONG! So I basically put myself and my feelings in the same situation I've called bitches dum for doing!!!

(I never believe that chiks and random sex is a healthy situation/some are not built for this/ most importantly random sex with someone you actually have feelings for )

So I'm over his house and we are talking, listening to music......and DRINKING

We have hung out before so I neverr planned on what happened next...to happen..

Is this happening? Does this mean he likes me?

I did not even see it coming, ok may be a kiss, but after 2 drinks and a shot all I can remember is us sexing...

YES!! YES!! YES!! I got to sex my crush-how wonderful!

WRONG!! Well it was good from what I remember (see that's the bad part)

The fact that I don't remember much

There was no romance , no cuddling, no anything

ha really .... no anything!

See I'm Trish (ahem) the strong one, the smart one, and basically when its comes to shit like this

matter fact... I dont end up in situations like this

gosh darnit!!!

All of this would've been an ok night ~ a crazy night ~ but normal for a young adult like myself...if it was any1 else

But not him, not (NAME IS PROTECTED) with the braids ::sigh::

I reallly liked him

I was sooooo mad

it went down like that,

well I'm not mad I think it would have been great if the crazy night ended differently

maybe with a hug or a kiss goodbye

maybe I should have stayed for breakfast

I just wanted more than that from him , and for (us)

but I know it can never be more

Soooo after brushing my teeth and laying in the bed as he read his book I decided to RUN..

I mean leave

I was content with us just being cool, but now that I sexed him.......

I picked the title "Mistake" because that was the first word that came to mind when I woke up later that day...but it wasn't

I Have No Regrets